Happy New Year!!

Crystal Clear and Laser Focus

WOW! Just WOW.
I just had a chat with Tony and man my goals are crystal clear and I have laser focus. He has a way of doing that to you when you talk to him. :P

So look out because the next few months are going to blow me and probably you away. I have a lot of work to do but I know EXACTLY what I need to do, and the results...are inevitable. :D

New Years Challenge Girls!
Hows it going? New Years is just around the corner! I know some of us overindulged at Christmas *raises hand...ME!* Did you get right back on track? Thats the key, falling off the wagon happens. those that continue to get back on everytime they fall off will reach their goals and ultimately their dreams!!

OK enough talk, I have a date with the gym!

19 weeks out!

So today I went shopping and bought 2 really cute halter tops, one in black and the other in... can you believe it... bright yellow. The yellow actually looked really good on. I also bought a pair of silver hoop earrings and Dan a shirt to wear to Summafield. Later this week I want to get a cute pair of pants to go with my tops. Oh and I bought LOTS of glowsticks!!

My eating has been clean since the 26th but man am I having some cravings, I don't DARE give in though. BECAUSE... this morning I went to put on a pair of pants that are normally loose and I could BARELY get them on!! I was jumping and wriggling and barely got them up! WTF?! I had no idea I was still that bloated, I am drinking TONS of water. It better go by Saturday!

I left going to the gym till late, I had just enough time to go and get my workout in before they closed.... and then we had a huge storm...HUGE. We lost net and were having brown outs. So I didn't go, now I get to make it up tomorrow...yay. I have been really tired all day and I have the worst headache right now.

Funny thing happened last week at the gym. I see this guy come up and try to pick up 3 sets of dumbbells, he ends up dropping one so kicks it across the floor in front of the mirror where I presume hes going to use them. He then just drops them all. Then he starts jumping around, hopping in place... THEN he starts SHADOW BOXING in the mirror, like full on going for it! And doing side kicks! He looked totally uncoordinated, but like he thought he was pretty cool and wanted all to see his uber coolness. I kept taking a drink from my water bottle trying so hard not to spray water out of my nose. I look around me and there are like 4 other guys trying so hard not to laugh. It was hella funny.

My goal tomorrow is to get up eat straight away and then go to the gym and hour and a half later, NO WAITING.

Oh I HAD to add this, I get Tut's Note from the Universe, todays said:

2009, Yvette, will not be just another year.

It's the absolute richest I've ever imagined, with the most possibilities I've ever created, for the coolest people I've ever known, to do the greatest things that have ever been done.

Don't feel any pressure.

Let's do this,
The Universe

I need a fan and a cold drink!

OMG its so hot! I am sitting here dripping sweat.

The bloat is slowly leaving, so Friday the 2nd I will take weight and measurements again *sigh*
Saturday is Summafield but I have been eating clean from the 26th on so heres hoping! I would get a diuretic but on Saturday we are going to be dancing and sweating and I don't want to get totally dehydrated. I plan on getting a spray tan on Thursday, and on Wednesday I will go shopping for something to wear!
Thats all I have for today, its too hot to think!

So Today....

this conversation took place:

Dan: You know its amazing... lol
Me: what?
Dan: How much bigger you get just from retaining water haha.
Me: *glares at him and balls up my fist*

Nuff said.

Oompa Loompa Doopity Doo...

I got a lot of work to do!
I totally overdid it. I tried to pace myself, but everything tasted so good. I failed. Now I am sitting here bloated all to hell, and very uncomfortable. I can't believe how big my stomach looks. So I have 9 days till Summafield, I need to work hard. I am so glad Christmas is over. I feel like I am retaining about 10lbs of water.

The Gym is closed today so I did a Turbulence Training bodyweight circuit which had me pouring sweat, and later I will do cardio on the beach.

I haven't been able to eat yet today and its noon, because I feel so turned off by food, so I am having a coffee atm . I am totally not hungry.

Change is good...

But a lot of work!

Weigh In 20-22 weeks out and Merry Christmas!

This is what Christmas looks like here :P I still can't get my head around it.


I did all my measurements this morning, and weighed in.. here are the results:

weight 132 down from 133 (not as much as I hoped but I'll take it)
thighs down 1/4 inch
thighs down 1/2 inch just above knee
calves down 1/2 inch
waist down 1/4 inch
saddlebag area down 3/4 inch

bodyfat % has dropped 2% I am sitting around 17% according to a couple different methods.
I think I may have gained some muscle as well because some of my lifts have gone up dramatically. So hopefully I will see the 120's next week!

I am now 20 weeks out from the INBA Brisbane Natural Physique and 22 weeks out from the ANB Asia Pacific.

I'll workout at the gym today and then tomorrow since the gym is closed for Christmas, I will do an hour of intervals in the morning and maybe a Turbulence Training workout then have Christmas day yummies.

Have a Merry Christmas Chickidees!!!

Ok I just had to ad this, I have been playing with bodyfat calculators all morning. I just cannot believe that I am 17%. I found one that uses the parillo method I thought was most accurate for me, it puts me at 20% with a fat mass of 27.54 and a lean mass of 104.46. cool. more beleiveable to me. So then I used this bodyfat cut calculator to determine how long it would take me to get to 12% bodyfat, @2 lbs a week it will take 6 weeks.Holy smokes THATS IT?! I have a sneaking suspicion that the weight loss will slow as I get closer so this is all theoretical.

New Years Goals and Just Say No!

Say No To:


Say Yes To:

( Ha! I stole this pic from Kelly's blog :P)


Today could have gone either way for me. My husband sat down next to me with a whole pizza and proceeded to eat it. All I could do was stare at it and for a moment I seriously thought about grabbing a piece and running (he would have tried to stop me lol) But I said NO! So instead I went to the gym and had a great leg workout, which is weird because I hate leg day, then I did 45 min extra cardio which I also hate on leg day. The last time I did hack squats my max weight was 15k, but today I did 40k and I probably could have done more. Where did that come from? Remembering back though that was when my body was starting to crash from the caffeine and I was losing lots of strength.

So I am really happy I got that done and did not stay home and steal my husbands pizza.lol.

I got to thinking about New Years resolutions and the like. Instead of resolutions which never seem to get accomplished, just written down and shoved in a drawer, why not sketch out a rough plan for your year?
For example, say you want to...

compete in a figure comp or
renovate the living room

... in 2009, figure out what you need to do when, what date is this competition, how much weight do you want to lose by when, and what method are you going to use? What things do you have coming up that may throw a wrench into your plans and how can you plan for them? What exactly are you doing to your living room, how much will it cost, do you need to save for this? Do you need to have holidays from work to complete it? It doesn't have to be set in stone, but you are much more likely to accomplish these things if you have a realistic plan.


I used to write a long list of resolutions with no idea how I was going to accomplish them, they were a list of wishes really, a year seemed like a long time, I figured I'd get around to them. Well I didn't, they had no date and no plan. If I can't fit a goal into my yearly plan, it may have to wait till another year.

For example I wanted to have my cert 3 and 4 done by May, well I am competing in May and frankly with work and comp prep I don't think I can handle it, I can't think properly right now, my brain is a sieve. I am already extremely tired, so I will wait till after the competition to do that. If I stretch myself too thin I get too stressed and then I am miserable.

I have a lot of goals for this year, goals that I have had for years. My main goal for 2008 was to compete and lose the rest of my weight. I managed to lose 60lbs but not in time to compete, thats ok, I will just reset the goal and 2009 will be MY year. I feel good about what I accomplished this year:D

Here are some of my goals:
Compete in May
Get my cert 3 and cert 4
Add creative hobbies back into my life ( This makes me very happy, I miss it)
Buy a frikin camera and take pictures of everything!
Attend 2-3 music festivals and concerts
Get out more with Dan and enjoy a more balanced life



I am still sketching out my year and seeing what will fit. Happy Planning!

What about you? What are 2 of your biggest goals for the next year?

Intensity

I have definitely kicked up the intensity of my intervals, its so hard to make it all the way through, but on a good note, I swear my legs are smaller :D I usually notice a difference after every really intense cardio session, when my eating is right on track, I am always a smidge smaller. Earlier this week I noticed my bat wings were smaller lol. So of course I had to run in and show Dan and see if he though so too, or if it was in my head :p

I should definitely be in at least a size 8 by Jan 3. I keep getting told there are no size 6's here..... wtf? What am I supposed to wear when the 8's are too small then, and what do these stick figure girls wear? My waist is at 26.5 and I still have a couple inches to lose, this was my goal size for my waist :S As I lose I keep seeing that nope, theres still more. It looks to me like 20lbs more on some days... but if I lose 20 lbs I will weigh 113!!

Last time I weighed that I was anorexic, seriously, and I went all the way down to 102 lbs. Man I thought I had found THE SECRET to weight loss, just don't eat, problem solved! I hated eating and if I did eat one little thing I would get the worst stomach pains. I thought it was awesome how my hip bones stuck way out and you could see my spine and ribs.

Well anyway, I guess I will just have to wait and see. You know, I hate waiting and seeing , I don't wanna wait and see. When someone says to me, well, we'll wait and see, I wanna scream lol. My husband says that ALL THE TIME!

I will weigh in on the 23rd and see how things are coming along....IF they fix the scale at the gym, it says out of order right now. I don't like to use different scales.

I just had to add this because you may be going but wait a minute you were fat.... yes after the starving myself stint, I got pregnant so I had to eat for the baby, this was not easy at all but I did it, after I had the baby I started having fun with eating, but then throwing it up. Yay! why didn't I think of THIS before, I still get the great taste (twice! LMAO) but no weight gain! Was I brilliant or what?

So when I started to eat normal my metabolism was so screwed up and I had lost so much muscle I gained weight like it was going out of style. Thats how I ended up at 263 lbs, that and I loved frosting, right out of the can. Don't do that, its bad.

Things are set in motion......23 weeks out

I made an appointment last night with Jo from Style On Stage for the end of January, to get my suit sorted and a posing session in. I'll practice my posing at home over the coming months. I plan on stoning my suit, so this gives her time to make it and me time to figure out what I want to do to it.
She let me know about a show 2 weeks before my show, that would be a good practice run, so I am seriously considering this and I am just waiting to see what Tony says.

Another thing, I am getting on that stage NO MATTER WHAT. I am not worried about the conditioning of my body, Tony said I have muscle to spare, I know by then that will be all good.

So there is no backing out here people! Which puts a whole new spin on things. Those suit bottoms are TINY, it doesn't look like my head would even fit in them.
23 weeks... it sounds like a long time, but it will go fast! How exciting is this?!

BLOATED!

I am bloated from heat, bloated from TOM , and bloated from my cheat meal last night that Tony insisted I have, due to how I was feeling. The cheat meal helped, I do feel better. But this bloat! I have been bloated for a week, my pants are tight, and its starting to play games with my head. I am drinking TONS of water and have been the whole time. Next week is Christmas, so as soon as I get this dam bloat to go away it will be back. I hadn't even intended to cheat, but due to how fast I am losing and the fact that my body doesn't seem to be adjusting as well as I would like , Tony has thrown a couple in. This bloat makes me feel like I am gaining and even though I know that I'm not, I am panicking that I am, does that make sense? My saddlebags hold water like a camels humps. The worst thing about it is I can't measure progress, weight and measurements are up, clothes are tight, and I have cankles! I need to see progress!! At this point I am dreading Christmas day, maybe though I can make some wiser choices to minimize the bloat.

Scary

The night before last night, me and hubby were asleep with our door closed. I woke up to someone standing in my bedroom doorway talking. I couldn't make out what they were saying and I didn't recognize their voice and it was too dark to see who it was. So I get up and go out the door and then I realize I have no freaking idea who this guy is, and he reaks of alcohol, so he is babbling about one of the computers fan and how he heard it and thought someone was in trouble... which makes no freaking sense. I went to bed exhausted and was woken up a short time later by this asshole so I am totally incoherent and confused, I ushered him to the front door and told him I can't believe he came in my house, he went out the door and I shut it and locked it.

Then I stood there and thought HOLY SHIT! he could have KILLED us, who the hell was that?! I go in the bedroom and I'm like DAN! THERE WAS A GUY IN HERE, IN OUR ROOM, hes all oh, who was it, I'm like I don't f&%#king know!
Some drunk guy!?

Can you believe it? He just walked right in, the front door was not locked, and apparently he was in my friends room as well because she always sleeps with her door shut and it was open. He seemed to just be totally out of it, he wasn't agitated just really confused about the sound the computer was making.
Still...How scary is that?

Stinkin Hot Sunday

I need to build some good legs! Like these!

I did back and abs yesterday, they are pretty sore today. Then I did 45 min of intervals on the beach. Today I have bi's and tris and then later another 45 min of intervals on the beach.

I woke up again after only 4 hours sleep sat at my computer and it was 5:30! I was like wait...its Sunday...I'm going back to bed, so I did , then I woke up at 10 min to 8, sat at my computer and had a cup of coffee, tried to stay up, didn't know if I should have my first meal, because I would have had to cook it and I was way too tired for that so then went back to bed till 15 min to 11. Why can't I just sleep straight through anymore!?!

Its stinkin hot here. The kind of hot where all your clothes are stuck to you and your wet all the time, blah.

I actually drank 25 cups of water yesterday, and was still thirsty when I went to bed but refused to drink anymore because I didn't want to be up peeing all night.

Not too much else going on just cleaning and getting ready for the week.


How are you New Years Challenge Divas going? Fall off the wagon? I admit I did. Get back on it! There is still 2.5 ish weeks to go!

OW! I just touched my ribs and they actually hurt to just touch.

OK I need to get ready for the gym!

I just got the BEST news!!!

Dan's mom is getting us Summafield Dayze Tickets for Christmas!!! How sweet is she?? I am sooo excited. Armin Van Buuren is going to be there!!! 1# DJ in the WORLD.
I need something to wear and omg I need to weigh as close to 120 as possible. This news made me drop my cookies lol. I am going to go bust my ass in the gym tomorrow.
Its going to be HOT AS HELL by then and I don't think I will be able to wear shorts yet. So any you guys have any suggestions for a cool as possible outfit, that also looks good? I need glow sticks too!! Lots of glow sticks!


Awesome, this is the kind of stuff I listen to at the gym, love it for cardio especially:D

Finding My Fire

This was posted on Body For Life Tracker by our Diva teamie Tara. I found it so very motivating especially right now, so I am reposting it here.

"The vision of a champion is bent over, drenched in sweat, at the point of exhaustion, when nobody else is looking." Anson Dorrance



FIND YOUR FIRE.

You are NOT backing down. NOT TODAY, NOT TOMORROW.

It doesn't matter what the day brought; what MATTERS is what YOU brought.

Your FOCUS is PIERCING, and it will not WAVER until the job is DONE.

ON FIRE, DRENCHED in SWEAT, NOT BACKING DOWN.

THIS is YOU.


This will be my mantra for the weeks to come. I know a lot of people are having tough times right now. I honestly wanted to lay down and give up today, but my brain won't let me. If it were easy the rewards wouldn't be as sweet.

oh I had to add, I did legs Tuesday and squatted 121 all the way to the ground for 6 reps! I was pretty happy, its been awhile since I could squat that much. My strength has dropped a lot in some areas but looks like its going up again! I had a powerlifter check my form while I was there, he said it looked good. But OMG are my legs SORE! putting my own arms on them hurts! :D

Stress. I has it.

I want chocolate. I want a cigarrette. I have horrible PMS and cramping. I am under such a huge amount of stress I feel absolutely drained. My husband took this photo of me today. Today officially sucks.

I'm Beached As!

Between the cheat(S) and the heat I feel like a whale. My shirts are suddenly too short lol. I didn't do so well this cheat it turned into a one big meal spread over many hours and then the next day the cravings hit, I made the mistake of shopping for cheat food on an empty stomach and was out longer then I intended so I started on it when I got home and blew off the gym, because I was feeling fat. I did go to the gym the next day and had a good workout, but I also had a kebab, a small bowl of ice cream and a bowl of cereal. This heat is making me tired, to where its hard to stand or sit straight I just want to lay down. Add to it that I can't seem to sleep more then 5 hours at a time so I feel unusually tired. I am back on my meal plan today. Today I have to clean house, do laundry and get ready for the week, I also need a nap if possible and would like to get out for a walk on the beach. Time to get back to it 129 here I come!!

Thank You Lori :)

I want to thank my friend Lori for posting this thread of support on the Body For Life Tracker board for me. It blew me away.
Lori has made an amazing transformation both inside and out, she is one of the Dreambodies Divas, check out her blog. Thank you Lori, your a great friend!

Things like this make it all worth it, sometimes you don't see your successes the same way until someone points them out. I know it has taken me a while to really own what I have accomplished.


That reminds me, the other day someone said "why don't you go to the beach"? I said, well I don't feel like going alone, they said "take a friend!" and I thought ...... all my friends live in my computer.... LOL.

My computer is re-formatted and running beautifully thanks to my husband!

Carbed Up!

I was trying to practice my back posing, its still not entirely right but you get the picture, again, excuse the room :s here is also a carbed up bicep pic. Practicing posing is a workout in itself. I like the ones I did a few months back better. If anyone has any tips to help me improve this pose please share :)

Formula for Success

If you don't already know about this blog its awesome I especially like the post on the Formula for Success http://christine-livepassionately.blogspot.com/

Wow! Tony Rocks!

I weighed into today because my pants were really loose and guess what I weigh NOW??!! 133!!!!! I checked it twice, with another a dumbbell to be sure and yes!! Tony said I get a cheat meal this weekend woohooo!! The only thing I can think of that I have done differently is absolutely push myself hard as hell in the gym and with my cardio.
I am so excited and now I just want to go kick ass in the gym! So funny, I have been really down the last 2 days.

I just wanted to say THANK YOU!! to all of my blog friends your comments mean so much to me :D

My computer has lots of spyware at the moment and needs a reformat so it is taking me ages to just to load a page because it keeps saying page cannot be found, so hopefully I can post this :S

Oh I wanted to add, my waist was 26.5 yesterday morning. One of the girls at work goes "why do you want to lose aymore weight? Look at you, your a bag of bones!" To which I LMAO and thanked her, I had to revel in it for a minute :P She just looked cofused.

My size 10's fit like this......

lol excuse my room, its the last room to get cleaned. I feel very "meh" today, I am dragging myself to the gym shortly. I am counting on feeling better after that. I am smaller today, I didn't notice the smaller part I noticed the loose skin :s Sue (Geoo) and Dan did though.

I don't even have a witty comment to go with these..*sigh* I just took these and sent them to Tony. Can I just say I hate the way I can't put my pics where I want them in a post?? How do I do that? If yu know please tell me.

Its Day 8, How are you doing??

“Follow your dreams, for as you dream you shall become.”

"Don't ever give up on a dream due to the amount of time it will take to achieve, time will pass anyway"

Day 8! That week flew by fast. How are you doing with your goals? Do you need to tighten things up? Work on your vision of what you want to achieve? Can you see yourself at your goal clear as day? If not keep trying, its gets easier with practice. Its a good idea to take some time first thing in the morning and last thing at night to "see" your goal, feel it, taste it, smell it.... so to speak. You are setting things in motion that will bring your goal closer, it will be easier to get off the couch and get those meals made for the day, get to the gym, and look a donut or slice of cake in the eye and say NO with confidence. You strengthen yourself when you do that, its like putting on armor. Put on your armor and go kick some ass!! Xena style! :P

How much better to start the new year off already moving toward your goal or achieving your goal! Its like starting the day off with a workout, your whole year starts off on the right foot.

When you feel like shit and depressed and don't care (even though you know you really do) and want to blow off the days eating and working out, grit your teeth and do it anyway. You will be so proud of yourself. Motivation rarely comes from sitting, thinking and planning, it comes from doing! How do I know? I am the QUEEN of planning and thinking and setting goals ad nauseum. Its so easy to get stuck there.

DREAM IT ,BELIEVE IT, ACHIEVE IT!! NOW GO KICK SOME ASS!!!

I am about to go do an hour of intervals on the beach, wanna come?

Let me know how your doing! :D