Sunny Days Are Here Again!

I just had my last weekend of class :( I can't believe it went so fast. I do have a couple makeup classes because I started a week later then everyone else (yay :D). I just have to complete all of my assessments before I get my certification and then I can go to work in something I am passionate about!


So ummm... I wasn't going to blog about this but I suck at keeping secrets, and anyway what the hell would I blog about if I couldn't tell you?
So September 26 is the ANB show, and yeah I know i said i wasn't competing... well then I was, then I wasn't, then I was... you get the point. I have been just having a really hard time wrapping my head around things because of what happened LAST TIME. Well I had several separate conversations about the whole thing. It seems everyone but me believed I could do it. I have been letting my past rule my future. So as it stands I am training hard and eating clean for September 26th. I have nothing to lose but fat!

I am puffy but feeling good, weight has been going up and down because up till I made this decision I may have had some cake and ... stuff :P. The good thing is, I am not binging. I don't think I could if I wanted to, it would just make me too sick.

Its sunny today and its making me feel good, I am hoping at the end of this year to be back on the Gold Coast near my beach.

Ok and what was up with last week? I wanted to drown myself! I was soooo depressed. I wouldn't even talk because I didn't want to hear myself, every day was torture. Frickin full moon, hormones, TOM,it was unbelievably bad. I think I should just take a sedative, or be drugged during this week in the future.:) Please and thank you.

Off to the gym now to build me some beautiful legs!