Ice Blocked?

Thats kind of how I feel. I feel like I am frozen in time....only time is still ticking! I feel just on the verge of something good happening but its not happening!! I went into a mandatory staff meeting on Tuesday and discovered I have not been rostered on at all this week! WTF? Apparently the guy who is now doing the rosters "forgot" I am not the only one either.

So I am plugging along doing my workouts and cardio everyday and seeing the water just now starting to drop.

On the job front I applied for one I found today, not much else in the paper today that I qualify for..

Even though I am not working I am getting up early every morning and getting my cardio in and keeping to a schedule with my meals and workouts. I am doing my best to stay positive and focus on what I want rather then what I don't want. THAT is really a struggle. I am taking note each day of the things I have to be thankful for, and that really helps keep the feeling of hopelessness away.
I am visualizing the future I want and trying not to worry about what COULD happen. I think I am doing excellent actually because TOM is due this week and I haven't had a crying jag or thrown any plates at Dans head, or ANYTHING.LOL

I have 2 cakes in my freezer that Dan's dad bought us, I am so proud I did not eat them, I really have them in there in case we have no food again, I hate to waste anything lol.
So I haven't had much to say as nothing much has changed but I expect soon there will be great changes for the good!

Anyone got an ice pick?